Friday, August 8, 2008

Appreciate ^.^


decorated mounting board wif 4 cards







fr Ting














fr Qian














fr Qi











fr Bai










Book of Memories











Yesterday after recess I really got a surprise. My gang gave me a present. It was a mounting board wif 4 different design of ‘cards’ pasted on it. Wow, it was nice. They had really put a lot of efforts in completing this ‘project’. I really appreciate this present as well. Although my birthday was already pasted for about 18 days, but this is a birthday present for me which only involving 4 of them, means my bez buddies(Bai, Qi, Ting n Qian). Thx a lot, girls. I still remembered my another present which I received on the day of my birthday, a book of Memories. That was a book with all the wishes from my friends written in it. These are the 2 best presents for this year as I prefer something memorable. Xuan, thx for yr chocolate from London. Im glad you still remember my birthday although u are not in msia at tat time.

现在的我开始笑了,但我还是有疑问。这是真实地从内心里笑,还是装出来让我朋友放心的开朗呢?我自己也分不清了。但愿是真事的吧!
现在我也开始习惯没你的生活了。你完全没有找我,而我也一样。算了,期望越高,失望越大。幸好日子总算过得去。哈哈,最近看到一个转校生,觉得他很斯文叻,也有点可爱。还记得他第一次上去唱国歌时,我就注意到他了。终觉得他有某人的影子,但是看久了,完全是不一样啦。
最近朋友都被爱情的问题环绕着。班上也越来越多绯闻了。但不要再传我跟他了啦,拜托。不是真实的却让你们传到。。。好尴尬叻。我们还得同班一年多的叻,我不想要尴尬的场面出现啦。
这几天不断有一班男生约我們去一个男生的生日派对,去还是不去呢?

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

珍惜幸福

这两天班上都常常传着谁与谁的关系,尤其是我的好友被传。这是因为昨天我与另外三位好友为了我们的lisan presented a forum related to love between teens. 这个话题都被同学问很多,尤其是后面那班男生。他们问很多,而我们也答得很激烈。但其实我并没有很激动啊,只不过生病,所以得把声量提高,再加上我觉得不同意他们所说的话,就反驳啦。其实也没什么大不了啦。但当那一切结束后,就有人说有四颗心已破碎了。其实不能说有四颗,因为被传我与另外一个男的只是假的,并不像另外三个男的是真的。为什么有人说会破碎呢?那是因为话题结束前我代表我们四位说了一句话,这也是我觉得很后悔的一句话,因为那一句话有可能会误了她们的幸福。我到没关系,因为幸福不会那么轻易眷顾我,再加上也真的没有。但我好后悔说了那一句话。朋友们,好对不起哦!但不知为何,下课后,竟然有位男生跑上前来与我的其中一位朋友坐。今天也是一样。或许我们这个话题无形中也帮了他们。我挺欣赏这种男生,喜欢就勇敢追,不会暗地里自个儿玩暗恋。加油啦!祝有情人终成眷属。

今天我周会进班后,那位现在与我被传到很热的男生来找我问些事情。同时,我听到后面的那班男生又再开始传了。那也算了。但下课后的生物节,我从前面的桌子跑到后面的桌子与我的朋友一同坐。很巧,那位男生也换位了。换到我右手边的桌子去,还和我同一排。其实我并不知道。是有一位男生无端端跑来跟我说那位男生叫我不要坐那边。好笑,是我先坐的叻,为什么一定要我走。回到班后,有位男生画了类似漫画的道歉刊本给我们。内容是关系到昨天他在我们的话题里问的一些问题。他叫我们不要一时之气而说了无法挽回的承诺。他也分别向我们四位致歉。关于我的呢,就是。。。他说我很冷。

有吗?我真的变成那么冷了吗?我问我隔壁的朋友,她说是。为何会搞到这样啊?其实之前已有人告诉我要主动与人说话。不是我不要,而是。。。当我主动与一些人说话时,这就代表那个人已得到了我的信任。其实我并不是那么冷漠的。近来一直被人问‘你有事吗?’ 今天也一样。今天心情中等,但还是被人问。救命呀!我该做些什么才能找回以前的我?唉,算了。或许经过那么多事情后,真的是长大了,思想也成熟了。

好了。。。希望我能改变自我
祝:朋友们,要珍惜幸福喔!但切记往对的方向走。若不喜欢追求你的男生,那就拒绝他吧。不要让两者都痛苦。

Monday, August 4, 2008

灰色

近期的我都很不快乐,常常都觉得很郁闷。终是有那种被人抛弃的感觉。我好讨厌这种感觉呀!
近期发生了很多事。全都很悲。我让自己陷入了无法自拔的地步。
有个人告诉我他喜欢了一个女孩,我顿时觉得很恍然无助。这就好像我将失去了所有的事。为什么会这样?我很怪。我就像失去了一个依靠。也因为如此我与他交谈时变得很冷漠。我就是这样。每当有一个我很在乎的人告诉我他喜欢了一个人时,我就会刻意回避他,把自己装得很冷淡,说话时毫无感情,还会时常逃避他。我不想要搞到这样。说我没有不开心是骗人的,我甚至把他送我的东西丢在一旁,不再去抱它。。。我是真的很在意吗?我不知道。现在与他交谈时,这个事实终会出现在我脑海里。我就像是将会永远失去他,虽然现在我知道我已经失去他了。。。
I really hope to escape myself from tis place...i really lose my feel towards it..im jz a failure in everything,any relationship make me fed up of it, no matter is friendship, brother-sister relationship, im jz getting sad of it
im nt really happy when i go to secondary school life, from a cheerful girl had changed to a moody girl...i want to find back the true me bt i had failed. im just looking for someone who is really care bout me, is it tat hard??? i couldnt answer tis question, maybe the answer might be disappointed me. everyday im just acting myself. sometimes yes, i express my feeling to my friend, bt yet i couldnt get any console from her. at home, i cannot cry, i dont want to let my parents know all these. Im just want to throw my arm to somebody and cry loudly, can I??? Last time mayb yes, he will alwaz be with me, listened to me...bt all these were already past tense. No return. maybe wat H say is true...
"when guy like u...u can choose to accept him or decline
same thing goes to guys....if guys feel sudenly tat girls not de right girl...he wil stop..n change target" 或许我表错情了

morning when i woke up, i had alot to write, bt now im abit blank bout wat im writing...