Blues

Loneliness creeps in =(...do i have true friends who will walk with me throughout my life? T.T

It has been almost a year that i do not post any new blog..
It is time to clean off all the spiderwebs in this blog...i not really want to write something, but im afraid if i din pour all my feelings over here, im going to explode

Blues mood~
So many things have occurred recently until i couldnt take it. Most of the problems stem from friendship. It seems incredible to believe that friends whom u thought u understand them well or they really treat u with their sincere heart do not go in the way as what i've expected. Few years of friendship is so fragile. It is until that very day wherein i know about the truth on how they spectate me as a person who reacts in that particular way. Few years of friendship because of a trivial matter, I have become the one to be blamed, to be criticized...how hurt is that....Cant u guys take a neutral stand before u judge us. cant u look at all the evidences or be frank to us before u hurt us. yea, it's sad and hurt, undoubtedly, especially the one i thought all the time to be my best male friend do the same thing to us....seriously, i have lost trust on u, i duno what am i suppose to expect from u...

I think im the one who is not easily remembered by other people..even the new friends. Most people will find her to ask for something, to look for something or to chat with. but im nothing. i know i shouldnt compare these with her, but i really couldnt stop myself from thinking. It's quite hurt to being ignored by others =(
a heartwrentching event happened today, i know u wont purposely do that to me, but seriously, u dont know how i feel..u duno what im keeping inside myself

I hope this semester will end as soon as possible, and i wan to flee from this kind of life to somewhere that can settle down my lil mind. I shouldnt care about all the heartrending matters on hand